I've lost something

01 diciembre

I've lost something

I got it now. Inspiration, I mean.

I feel strange. Rare, Bizarre. I feel like if I had lost something. I feel a hole in my stomach. I feel nervous, I feel unhappy, I feel restless. What I have lost? There are many things I've lost. But I think I will be able to recover most of them.

I don't know why, but I think all these feelings are very familiar to me. In fact, I missed them somehow. When I found all thee feelings again I felt that I was me once again. I started doing things long time forgotten. I have not lost some skills I think I've lost forever. Now I feel like some time ago, but maybe is not the same.

Sad, isn't it? It seems that me is me just when I am sad or disappointed or something. I found it really disturbing. Maybe is just I am very used to it, and when I am feeling other things I do not recognize the new feelings as mine. Well, this is a little bit exaggerated (or however it is said, I don't mind), but is basically what I feel.

Maybe I was living not for me, but for others. Now I'll continue my way. Maybe I tried to change so much. That was stupid. Yes, stupid define it accurately. Now I am back as how I used to act. Maybe I just feel more protected this way. Defence, old fellow.

Shields up!

Well, I hope not to disappoint you. I feel comfortable, somehow. I know it is no-sense, but please, don't worry.

I just will try to get up and start looking for something

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

Hahahahaha

carlos